Blogger Opens Up About the Heartache of Child Loss in Emotional Instagram Post
10 months ago, 8 Mar 20:58
Lifestyle blogger Jacqui Saldana has been sharing recipes and heartwarming moments with her kids online for years. But in 2014, tragedy struck, and her 3-year-old Ryan was hit and killed by a truck, changing everything for the California mom. Though time has passed since Saldana and her husband Dan's heart-wrenching loss, they undoubtedly face emotionally trying moments. Saldana took to Instagram on Tuesday, March 6 to share one in particular. "I’m feeling major regret tonight," she wrote alongside a beautiful photo with her 2-year-old daughter Mila. "Today while I was checking out at Target this old couple came over & started to play with Mila. The three of them laughing together & Mila was trying to share her box of raisins with them. Before they left the lady looked at me and asked 'she is your only one?' 😔 When I looked at the lady she was so happy, I panicked and just said 'ya' then smiled back. Then I cried in my car on the way home." You know when you can feel a good cry coming & you keep yourself busy so that need to cry subsides? Then you hear a song or see something that immediately triggers your long overdue cry. I’m sitting in the car while Mila is napping & I miss my son so badly. My long overdue cry just hit 🤷🏽♀️😔 I just wish he was sitting in the backseat too. A post shared by Jacqui Saldana-Baby Boy Bakery (@babyboybakery) on Jan 25, 2018 at 1:38pm PST Saldana elaborated, "I feel awful for not saying 'No! I have an older son.' But a lot of times that leads people to ask 'is he at school?' and then I’m forced to say, 'no he passed away when he was three.' And then it gets weird." Saldana says she just "felt so tired & just didn’t want to get into it all while at the Target check out. The lady was so sweet, but it breaks my heart thinking about Ryan. It would kill me if he heard me say that. It may all seem so small and not a big deal. But it’s torn me a part all evening. Thanks for listening 😏💔." I’m feeling major regret tonight. Today while I was checking out at Target this old couple came over & started to play with Mila. The three of them laughing together & Mila was trying to share her box of raisins with them. Before they left the lady looked at me and asked “she is your only one?” 😔 When I looked at the lady she was so happy, I panicked and just said “ya” then smiled back. Then I cried in my car on the way home. I feel awful for not saying “No! I have an older son.” But a lot of times that leads people to ask “is he at school?” and then I’m forced to say, “no he passed away when he was three.” and then it gets weird. I felt so ...
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